They Say There's A God

Believers say there is a God and he has a plan for us all. Well I beg to differ. Here's my arguement. A young man that I have staying with me for a short while has been loosing family left and right at an alarming rate. For example, in the last 72 hours he lost four family members. The first, two brothers out on the streets of Lousianna are gunned down blocks away from their home. Upon hearing the news their distraut mother, drives off a bridge unable to deal with the grief. She dies instantly. The morning after, his god brother, who he's close to have a stroke from the stress and dies. Heart broken and at witts in he confides in me he hasn't spoken to his mother lately because he's not sure if she know what's going on. Then he get the dreaded call that his mother heard tje bad news and had a heart attack. She's been in a coma (last count nearly 24hrs). After this young man cried his eyes out he finally fell asleep. He woke up screaming, that instantly turned into tears from the night before. His screams turned into uncontrolable sobbing that would break the hardrst heart. So I ask you, where is your God? How do we tell this young man who has his life ahead of him that God has a plan for him?

Smh...its been over a month since my last blog. Been so damn busy it's rediculous. Where do I begin? Worked the PGA tour in Atlanta in September. Was a good weekend. Didnt make too much in tips but as usual met some cool people. Got a good pic of Tiger Woods arrogant ass. Lol. Following that not only did I work my regular job but I was also called in by the agency to work a few days. The following weekend I worked the TomorrowWorld music festival. Now that was great! Bartended for the best beer makers I ever met. Breckingridge Brewery. Not too mention a weekend of full partying and damn near naked women. Made a bunch of money outside my check. Met some more cool ppl. Oh yea, had my own personal porn right in front of my tent. Lmao...young white couple was high and fucking in a ditch. I kid you not! And once that was over I got a call from a guy I worked for at the Antigue Flea market in Jonesboro. Hard work pays off. The bad part is I had to turn down the agency because a client asked for me specifically. Now that's a good look. Then there was gay pride. Smh...un fuckin believable! And as soon as I thought I'd get a break my wife's grandmother passed away. Had to drive the family to N.C. for the funeral. And I know you might not think that's bad but I'm the only driver so you know how that plaid out. The upside; I got to see my oldest son. Haven't seen him in almost two years. So with all that being said, I had to spend all my car money on rentals, traveling expenses, and bills. Very busy, right? Yea I know but then there was this. My godbrother came up from N.Y. to stay a while because of a bad living situation back home. Then a family friend was forced to leave her apartment due to violence so we opened our doors to her and her kids. House filled to capacity. But hey, we'll do what we always do. We'll make it work. Stay tuned for more becuase I'm definitely back.

Hopes Deferred

I was called in yesterday as the last minute to work at the Coca Cola Headquarters by the agency I frequented (and I use the word frequent loosely). They asked me to get in as soon as possible. So after a two hour commute I get there only to be told that they had enough people by the manager. They called the office to clarify why I was there while I waites nearly three hours only to be told to go home. The good thing is I was promised to be compensated for their error and will be paid for four hours. We'll see how that turns out. That aside, I've dealing with these people for months now. They have me call in once a week and get an attitude if I decise to follow up a few days later. But they only call me like once every month and a half. But I'm going to keep working with them until something better comes along. Hey, I refuse to quit a job if I don't have another to replace it. On a brighter note, Mimi from Love and Hip Hop Atlanta is having a party at my regular job tonite. This should be interesting. Phone will stay charged so I can take pictures. Lol

Sexcapades 2

I had a reader email and said, "I read your new ebook Sexcapades 2 and I loved it. I don't usually read erotica but your was recommended to me by a friend so I gave it a shot. I loved the fact your stories well writen, steamy, and didn't degrade women like so many other writers are doing now a days. Keep up the good work!" Now you see what my motivation is. Thank you Kiesha S. With that being said, have you downloaded your copy yet? Get it @ www.smashwords.com/books/view/296230

Stress Relief

Every day I deal with enough pressure to break the backs of ten of the world strongest men. But if it wasn't for my kids I would have been fell to it. So shout out to the Harrison brood. They deep! Lol

First 48 (No Murder)

The last 24hrs have been the craziest for me. First I get off work ealry, and I know what you thinking. Thats a good thing. But for me it isnt because I take the train to work and here in ATL the train dont start running until 6am and I got off at 2am. So that means I have to wait 4hrs. So, me being me I go to the strip club Onyx. As soon as I get there theres a shoot out. I'm talking 20 rounds! After I survived that I go to another club and some broads like 6ft tall. Then when I get to my train station my bike is gone! Somebody stole it. Smh...I count it as a loss. But when I go back to the train station and my bike is there with a new chain and lock like it was never stolen. I try to wait the person out. No luck. So I tell an officer who's standing out front. No luck there either. So I do the next best thing. I bust he damn tires and take the seat. Stupid, I know but hey. Then I get to work and start writing this blog and get a call that a close friend of mines just lost her mother. She had no illnesses or anything. Just passed out and didnt wake up. When you get a call like that it make you look at your trouble and question is it really any trouble at all.

Dashed Hopes

We had a family trip planned for New York so the kids could enjoy their summer among family. But for two days Ive been trying to rent a car only to be turned away because my utility bills weren't efficient enough. You see, a few months ago I switched my utilities to pre-paid so I can manage them better instead of having then disconnected every month. It has worked but it also came back to bite me in the ass. Needless to say, I first had to suffer thru watching my wife cry because she misses her brother, sister, and son. Then I had to watch my kids cry their hearts out. I'll try to make the trip again next month but I won't tell them just incase things don't go right again.

Paula Dean

In today's news, Paula Dean was released from her contract because she and her brother constantly used racial slurs and inappropriate language. Here's my problem. Ms. Dean is over 60 years old and was raised during a period in the south where bigotry ran rampant. Of course she said the word nigger before. I'm not saying this excuses her behavior but what do you expect. There's a very ild saying "He without sin shall cast the first stone."

Miscommunication

Earlier I had an inbox convo with a publisher who I am working with regarding my payment. Now there was no reason to question the guy's integrity regarding my money but some words were exchanged that I noticed could have turned the relationship bad in a matter of seconds. I noticed this after he inboxed me again later on apologizing for the way he came off. He didnt want me to think he had an attitude with me. Now I didnt think that but after I reread our convo I could understand how his words could have been taken. So my question is this, have you ever been a victim of a person over analizing what you typed? Maybe the words were in all caps and the person thought you was raising your voice. Or maybe just a poor choice of words had the person thinking you was being a smart ass or something. What say you?

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The F word

In recent news, Amanda Bynes became the target of Drag Queen RuPaul for tweetinf to People Magazine "I dare you to follow me you fagots!" Rupaul said Amanda's tweet shows her narrow mindedness and bigotry towards gays (maybe not in those exact words). Here's my problem with the entire situation. In the inner city the word fagot isnt a homophobic slur. It is meant as a diss of sorts, ie. a soft person, a weak person, a punk. Now I can understand how some gay people may get offended by the word but a lot of "urban" celebs have recieved a lot of negative flack over calling some one a fagot, ie. Kobe Bryant and the ref. And I do not think it's fair to them. But I guess the word fagot is quickly replacing the word nigger, my fault, I meant the N word. Smh....people need to stop being overly sensitive because if you're called a fagot then you must be one and I'm not referring to the homophobic slur.

Side Job.

So...in my quest to make money legally just to survive day to day life I was hired to work with a vendor at an antique show. The vendor sold beads and old relics to people who made custom jewelry. The guy was actually nice. My job was to hand all the beads for display. Who would have ever thought one person could have so many beads to sell. This dude had EVERY color and shape you could think of! My back is still killing me from carrying all them bins full of beads. On the bright side, there were also some gun dealers selling real antique weapons. One guy had a .44 widow maker for sale for $800. If I had the money I would have got it.

American Violet

I recently watched a true story movie called American Violet. It was a story based in  a small town in Texas. A racist District Attorney was using illegal tactics to boost their crime stats up by arresting black people for drug crimes, specifically crack cocaine. Most of the people's only crimes were merely being black, poor, and living in the projects. One young lady in perticular was arrested and charged with possession of crack/cocaine in a school zone. She was threatened with a sentence of 16-25 years in prison if she didn't plea guitly and agree to supervised probation. Most people in her position would have taken the probation knowing the cards were stacked against them. I personally know a few. The young lady accepted the plea after 21 days in jail. Between that time the ACLU became involved and began fighting on behalf of the people. Needless to say they won. My reason for mentioning this book is this, growing up I've been on both sides of this fence. I've been the guilty crack dealer (really guitly) and I've been the innocent one getting stopped by the police just for looking like a hoodloom. Even recently in my small town of Fairburn, Ga. I was stopped by a patrol officer as a so called case of mistaken identity. I can easily say it was racial profiling but the officer in question was blacker than me. But I will tell you this, I've long understood the difference between a racist and a bigot.


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GSU Graduation

So, in my on going attempts not to be broke I was hired today to work a photo booth at the Dome for GSU's Graduation Day. Smh...some of the things some of these grads were wearing was bananas! Needless to say some of them were pretty nice tho. Congrats GSU!

Surprised Visit

I got a surprise visit from two of my kids (8 and 12) this weekend. I haven't seen them in person in nearly two years. The reason why I say personally is because I Skype with them frequently. Now here's the problem. Their mother decides to make a surprise visit and bring them from North Carolina to Georgia without giving me a heads up. I'm broke as hell so I didn't have anymoney to take them anywhere or buy them anything to make their trip more memorable. And I know that shouldn't matter if all they wanted to do was see me but I always treat them. Second problem is I had to make sure I had enough food in my house to feed them. Why? Because since I didn't know they was coming I had to find extra money to feed them. Their mother showing her true colors, split before they had a chance to even take their jackets off so I couldn't pull her to the side and discretely ask her for help, which I have to admit, she would have given to me. and to make matters more complicated I had to work so that interferred with us spending time together. But in the end it worked out well. I came home from work that morning and made them breakfast. I was in the middle of making them dinner when they mother showed up to get them and just that fast was right back off. Now, my only question is why? Why would she just show up to do something nice. Why she dropped them, disappeared, and reappeared just like that? I guess I'll never know without asking her directly, which I won't do because then she'll think I care when in reality I'm just being nosey. lol

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An Omen

I don't know why but for some reason my heart. I don't mean hurt in the physical sense. I mean hurt emotionally, but I don't no why. But I do know once I put my finger on the source it won't be good.

The War Inside Me.

Tupac once said, "Don't go to war unless you got your money up." Well, I don't have my money up so I cant afford to go to war. But that doesnt mean war isnt brewing inside of me. I was born with that fire. A conflicted soul since birth. My elders used to say my spirit wasnt at peace so that was why I left a path of destruction no matter where I went. I never really cared about the damage I caused, very rarely apologizing. But then my grandmother once told me, "You're just like your grandfather. Nothing is going to settle you until you burn yourself out." Well thats a scary thought considering my grandfather is 70+ and still move like he's 40 with the same exuberance in his step.

Family

I was raised that end of the day it's family over everything even if y'all don't get along. Well that just isnt the case anymore. What hurt me so bad about it is that my family means everything to me, even my extended family, because that's how I was raised. I've caught criminal cases for my family, feed them when they were hungry, and protected them at all costs. Just the other day my electricty was shut off due to non payment. I had the money but since I forgot to pay it I had to pay extra to have it cut back on. I was $14 short. I called my family and they said they would send me the difference. That was 3 days ago and I have yet to recieve it. The even sadder part is that they're not even answering their phone. Luckily for me I actually had the $14 but forgot I had it so I was able to pay the bill without depending on them. This isn't the first time they did this so I'm not too surprised. But at the end of the day they're still family and I will still do everything all over again for them even though I know now they wouldn't recipricate the same loyalty. But like my grandfather always told me, I'm the last of a dying breed.

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Book Review

So...I get an inbox from a reader (I won't put her on blast. lol) telling me how good my new short story Secapades 2 was. her only complaint was that it was too short. Her words exactly, "OMG, I read your short story and it made me wet. I've since ordered one of your books called MY HOUSE because I loved the sample reading. I can't wait!" Well, thank you (cuz I know you read my blog) and I hope you enjoy it.

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This is why!

Take a look into my daily life: I bust my behind workin 12hr shifts and come payday my money wasnt deposited. Why you ask? I was the victim of unfortunate stupidity and my check was MAILED to me even tho they recently stopped hard copy checks. Smh...they make it hard to not go back to a life of crime.

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Shakey Labor Companies

Smh...so I start working for a labor company here in ATL that staff a lot of restaraunts and events two weeks ago. My first day I ended up working over 12hrs (which didnt bother me so much) without being told the shift would be that long. Now low and behold, today is payday and my card isnt activated and NO ONE is answering the fuckin phone. And this is how society expects a ex-convict to stay lut of trouble, by jerking him around on his hard earned money? Smh...I would say pray for me but I think your prayers will be better spent on them if I dont get my money.

Blinded By Anger

It's no unknown secret to my family that I've had an anger problem since birth. But since getting married I've been able to keep in check. The reason is simple, I lost my temper one nite and saw the fear in my family's eyes. That instant did what no medication could ever do for me. It calmed me down. But today I lost it. A stupid argument led to my hurling my plate of food across the room out of anger. Luckily no one was hit, but I did crack my bedroom window. So now, I have to pay to get it fixed with money I don't have. SMH...I think I'ma just start drinking again. At least this way when I do loose my temper it'll be too late because I'll be done fell asleep before I can do anything stupid. lol...don't judge me.


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So I walked inside my nitely McDonald's the other nite and while I was ordering my usual breakfast the cashier told me they can't allow homeless people to sit inside the resteraunt any more. For as smart as I am, the comment went over my head. but when I got it I was like "What?" So I told the cashier with a smirk, "I'm far from homeless. I live in a mansion in a nice quiet suburb outside of ATL. I work in the area and since my car isn't working I'm stuck in the area until the train start running again. But don't worry. I won't come back." The clerk replied "Wel I thought..." and I stopped him and said "that's what you get for thinking. McDonald's doesn't pay you for that." and left.

Book Review

So I just finished a book called Crazy In Love. It was a decent.

So...since I'm stuck sitting in a loal Mc Donald's until ATL's public transportation start running since my car isn't working and I can't afford to fix it. And every nite I sit in there I'm entertained either by the patron's that frequent it late nite or by the ratchet staff. Yea I said ratchet. When ever you have employees that curse more than I do then something is wrong. Last nite a female told a male (both workers) "I would tell you to suck my dick but I'm not disrespectful." No reprimand???? SMH...