The War Inside Me.

Tupac once said, "Don't go to war unless you got your money up." Well, I don't have my money up so I cant afford to go to war. But that doesnt mean war isnt brewing inside of me. I was born with that fire. A conflicted soul since birth. My elders used to say my spirit wasnt at peace so that was why I left a path of destruction no matter where I went. I never really cared about the damage I caused, very rarely apologizing. But then my grandmother once told me, "You're just like your grandfather. Nothing is going to settle you until you burn yourself out." Well thats a scary thought considering my grandfather is 70+ and still move like he's 40 with the same exuberance in his step.

Family

I was raised that end of the day it's family over everything even if y'all don't get along. Well that just isnt the case anymore. What hurt me so bad about it is that my family means everything to me, even my extended family, because that's how I was raised. I've caught criminal cases for my family, feed them when they were hungry, and protected them at all costs. Just the other day my electricty was shut off due to non payment. I had the money but since I forgot to pay it I had to pay extra to have it cut back on. I was $14 short. I called my family and they said they would send me the difference. That was 3 days ago and I have yet to recieve it. The even sadder part is that they're not even answering their phone. Luckily for me I actually had the $14 but forgot I had it so I was able to pay the bill without depending on them. This isn't the first time they did this so I'm not too surprised. But at the end of the day they're still family and I will still do everything all over again for them even though I know now they wouldn't recipricate the same loyalty. But like my grandfather always told me, I'm the last of a dying breed.

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Book Review

So...I get an inbox from a reader (I won't put her on blast. lol) telling me how good my new short story Secapades 2 was. her only complaint was that it was too short. Her words exactly, "OMG, I read your short story and it made me wet. I've since ordered one of your books called MY HOUSE because I loved the sample reading. I can't wait!" Well, thank you (cuz I know you read my blog) and I hope you enjoy it.

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This is why!

Take a look into my daily life: I bust my behind workin 12hr shifts and come payday my money wasnt deposited. Why you ask? I was the victim of unfortunate stupidity and my check was MAILED to me even tho they recently stopped hard copy checks. Smh...they make it hard to not go back to a life of crime.

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Shakey Labor Companies

Smh...so I start working for a labor company here in ATL that staff a lot of restaraunts and events two weeks ago. My first day I ended up working over 12hrs (which didnt bother me so much) without being told the shift would be that long. Now low and behold, today is payday and my card isnt activated and NO ONE is answering the fuckin phone. And this is how society expects a ex-convict to stay lut of trouble, by jerking him around on his hard earned money? Smh...I would say pray for me but I think your prayers will be better spent on them if I dont get my money.

Blinded By Anger

It's no unknown secret to my family that I've had an anger problem since birth. But since getting married I've been able to keep in check. The reason is simple, I lost my temper one nite and saw the fear in my family's eyes. That instant did what no medication could ever do for me. It calmed me down. But today I lost it. A stupid argument led to my hurling my plate of food across the room out of anger. Luckily no one was hit, but I did crack my bedroom window. So now, I have to pay to get it fixed with money I don't have. SMH...I think I'ma just start drinking again. At least this way when I do loose my temper it'll be too late because I'll be done fell asleep before I can do anything stupid. lol...don't judge me.


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So I walked inside my nitely McDonald's the other nite and while I was ordering my usual breakfast the cashier told me they can't allow homeless people to sit inside the resteraunt any more. For as smart as I am, the comment went over my head. but when I got it I was like "What?" So I told the cashier with a smirk, "I'm far from homeless. I live in a mansion in a nice quiet suburb outside of ATL. I work in the area and since my car isn't working I'm stuck in the area until the train start running again. But don't worry. I won't come back." The clerk replied "Wel I thought..." and I stopped him and said "that's what you get for thinking. McDonald's doesn't pay you for that." and left.

Book Review

So I just finished a book called Crazy In Love. It was a decent.

So...since I'm stuck sitting in a loal Mc Donald's until ATL's public transportation start running since my car isn't working and I can't afford to fix it. And every nite I sit in there I'm entertained either by the patron's that frequent it late nite or by the ratchet staff. Yea I said ratchet. When ever you have employees that curse more than I do then something is wrong. Last nite a female told a male (both workers) "I would tell you to suck my dick but I'm not disrespectful." No reprimand???? SMH...