Hard Times

Got the news a few days back that my aunt is on her death bed. She's not any aunt. We was raised as brother and sister since she's only a few years older than me. My heart is hurting. I mean to the point that I feel so angry and destructive that I'm ready to explode. I hear the pain in her daughter's voice everytime we speak. She look to me for answers to help her understand her mother's situation and I have none. Smh...

Family Issues

Most of my marraige I've been the main focus. Bread winner, support, everything. A few months ago I taught my wife how to drive, mainly because I was tired of doing all the driving. She protested about it. Once she learned I told her the only reason you have to stay with me now is love. Funny thing is I see the crack widening with every sunset. Smh...maybe she knew something I didnt.

Long Time No See

Smh...its been a long time since I blogged. For the most part things been ok. A little up and down but nothing too turbulent. My biggest issue is I lost my job because I am a convicted criminal. Nothing new really. Never lied on my app, probably should have tho. It was a temp job that I was working for about four months. The job wanted to hire me due to my work ethics. But then the dreadful background check was done. Oh well, back to the hustle to survive. Nothing new. I been here before. Difference is Im at a better place mentally.

Unhappy Publisher

So, after weeks of getting my short story together, because I just wasn't into it, I submit it to my publisher. And he wasn't feeling it from the start. He said it had too many distractions. Now I feel some kinda way about this. Why? Because I read some of the work he puts out by other authors and its garbage. To add insult to imnjury, the last project I did for him he said it wasn't what hewas expecting from me but ran with it anyway. But according to the readers, my story was one of the best in the series. But now he told me he liked it. Now I can get angry and tell him to go fuck his self but I won't. You know why? There's an old saying, your enthusiasm shows in your work. And I definitely wasn't enthused. So IMA go back to the drawing board and bang something out that'll shake the rest of his book up. Let's get it!

My morning dilema

Been up since 4. Been waking up like this for the last few months. Before this it was nitemares every other nite. So I guess things got better. but it can also be because of stress. I havent worked steady since November when my job fired me. Im not really hurting for money but Im hurting for it. Understand? Got a few writing gigs. On one now but cant seem to get focused. But Ima keep on writing until it flows freely.

Smh...its been a while since I posted. OK, a looong while. But a lot has been going on. First off, things have been looking up financially. Even after I lost the part time job that I needed so bad. Smh...crazy, right? My sales have been down but that's nothing new. I have however been finding more side work so that's a good thing. I'll keep you posted on that.