Blended families

I'm at odd with my wife over the raising of two of out teens. Both girls, one is 16 and the other 17. The 17 year old is the average teen. Nevwr been into too much trouble but at the sane time never been caught so. The 16 year old a little more secluded. She has the ability to more than excel but has been shutting down more and more lately. I'm torn between being the strict father and the sympathetic father. She's barely eating and of recent had to make her eat in front of me like a child. The ex-social worker in me tell me she's depressed and need to talk to someone. But the father in me keep pushing her to open her mouth and tell me what's going on.

Marriage Life

Happy wife, happy life. So they say. Truth is there's never enough anyone can do to keep a person happy. We had different views in the beginning. But our views soon became one. And then out of the blue one day our views separated again. This time with a larger divide. Don't get me wrong, we don't argue and have blown out fights but the tension is still there. Going days with little communication between us isn't cool but I guess both of our prides is too big to bend. Well we'll see how this play out this time. It won't end us but it will definitely will widen that divides. Realest quote ever: The hardest job I ever had was being a husband.

Hard Times

Got the news a few days back that my aunt is on her death bed. She's not any aunt. We was raised as brother and sister since she's only a few years older than me. My heart is hurting. I mean to the point that I feel so angry and destructive that I'm ready to explode. I hear the pain in her daughter's voice everytime we speak. She look to me for answers to help her understand her mother's situation and I have none. Smh...

Family Issues

Most of my marraige I've been the main focus. Bread winner, support, everything. A few months ago I taught my wife how to drive, mainly because I was tired of doing all the driving. She protested about it. Once she learned I told her the only reason you have to stay with me now is love. Funny thing is I see the crack widening with every sunset. Smh...maybe she knew something I didnt.

Long Time No See

Smh...its been a long time since I blogged. For the most part things been ok. A little up and down but nothing too turbulent. My biggest issue is I lost my job because I am a convicted criminal. Nothing new really. Never lied on my app, probably should have tho. It was a temp job that I was working for about four months. The job wanted to hire me due to my work ethics. But then the dreadful background check was done. Oh well, back to the hustle to survive. Nothing new. I been here before. Difference is Im at a better place mentally.

Unhappy Publisher

So, after weeks of getting my short story together, because I just wasn't into it, I submit it to my publisher. And he wasn't feeling it from the start. He said it had too many distractions. Now I feel some kinda way about this. Why? Because I read some of the work he puts out by other authors and its garbage. To add insult to imnjury, the last project I did for him he said it wasn't what hewas expecting from me but ran with it anyway. But according to the readers, my story was one of the best in the series. But now he told me he liked it. Now I can get angry and tell him to go fuck his self but I won't. You know why? There's an old saying, your enthusiasm shows in your work. And I definitely wasn't enthused. So IMA go back to the drawing board and bang something out that'll shake the rest of his book up. Let's get it!

My morning dilema

Been up since 4. Been waking up like this for the last few months. Before this it was nitemares every other nite. So I guess things got better. but it can also be because of stress. I havent worked steady since November when my job fired me. Im not really hurting for money but Im hurting for it. Understand? Got a few writing gigs. On one now but cant seem to get focused. But Ima keep on writing until it flows freely.